I’m in a foul mood today and very busy and honestly this post would be mostly whining if I let it go on so I’ll keep it short. Today was meant to be a back-to-lifting day but that didn’t work out so instead it was 45 minutes of cardio, a mile of running and then the rest on the elliptical. My back held up okay, though it’s still twingey.
The reason I didn’t lift was because of something I haven’t mentioned here before: in another foul mood a couple weeks ago, I lost my temper and bashed on the counter with my fist– and did something nasty to my pinky joint. I can move it fine and it doesn’t hurt in most situations but holding a bar up is excruciating. I didn’t know this until I tried it today. So no lifting.
(My partner has a name for these outbursts, ‘hulking out’. I hate them. I especially hate when I break something, or myself. It just becomes a reminder of how terrible I am.)
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OMG girl, you are not terrible. Terrible is putting that fist on your partner instead of the counter.
I remember one time I was SO RAGEFUL I dashed into the garage and SCREAMED as I smashed up a bunch of innocent clay pots with a pry bar. It was AWESOME. I’m not proud of it, but sometimes an emotion is so strong you can’t just quietly dissipate it. Definitely it’s better to find a more constructive outlet, but sometimes you do what you have to do…. hope your pinky is better soon.
That sounds incredibly cathartic! I feel better just reading your description, heh.
I went full-on Mommy Dearest psycho, except that no humans were harmed :-D
Not terrible, just fully human like us all.
Thanks <3
Agreed, not terrible, just human. And besides, I’m taking the title as a reference to “Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt” so you get so many points for that! “And just the one shoe”
Give it some time to heal (and maybe see a doctor about the joint).
Actually… you know the song Everything Is Awesome from the lego movie? Around here we sing it, “Everything is butts/Everything is butts when your butt is a butt/Everything is butts/When your butt is a butt” I’ve never seen Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt…
The night before a race this year, my running friend and I watched The Lego Movie, so when we passed each other near the turnaround, we high-fived and shouted “SPACESHIP!!” and then had to explain what we were doing!
I agree, you’re human. Emotions need an outlet sometimes, and while that may not have been the *best* way to do it (ouch) it’s better than many alternatives. Be gentle with yourself. You’re not terrible.
Thanks, this is comforting. Sometimes I feel like a rage monster and am sure no one else ever feels that way, but they probably do :)
You are not terrible x (But I totally understand where that thought comes from)
I know, it’s just hard sometimes, there are so much emotions.