I think I’m coming down with something– my nose is running, my throat is sore, and I’m super lethargic. But I went to the gym anyway. We’ll see if that was a good idea or not tomorrow…
Actually I feel a little better after dragging myself through a slow-ish but solid 3 miles on the treadmill. Hungry though! I’m still experimenting with saving breakfast for after my workout.
(tw: weight loss and wedding crap follows)
Plans for the wedding are rapidly crystallizing (omg stress) and things that were very abstract 2 months ago are now much more real. Hello, Wedding Industrial Complex!
One thing that’s popped up for me– without anyone bringing it up, even, this is all me here– is wondering if I should try to lose weight/grow my hair/otherwise change my appearance for the wedding. All of the sudden I’ve somehow internalized the idea that I need to look like one of them waifish wedding dress models with long tousled hair and a flower crown.
As far as I can tell, pre-wedding weight loss is 1) temporary; 2) non-health focused; and 3) oddly not about the husband-to-be but rather for impressing other women and getting ‘good’ pictures.
Of course, looking at it critically isn’t helping much to chase away the feeling that it’s something I ought to do. My partner likes how I look now, I think I look fine in pictures right now, but it’s just "what is done".
Maybe one of the plusses of this short engagement is that I won’t have too much time to worry about it…