I must’ve gotten up on the wrong side of the bed today. Not only have I been weepy and angry in turns all morning, but my workout wasn’t very great either.
Since I’ve been hitting running fairly hard this week I just decided to do a broad 5×5-style lifting sesh: bench (125lb), squat (125lb), OHP (60lb), row (75lb), and deadlift (1×5, 155lb). It was just not my day. I failed my last bench rep catastrophically and unexpectedly (no spot either, but thankfully there was someone around to rescue me) and everything else went to crap. I loaded up the squat bar with 135lb (not very heavy for me), did one rep, said NOPE and took weight off. Same thing happened with DL; I put 185lb on it and went NOPE after unracking. So much NOPE.
I’m in a different place than I was 6 months ago and I know I shouldn’t be upset about my lifting going drastically backwards but I’m not over it yet. I pinned my athletic identity on being strong, and now I have to revise that. Once I’m back to being able to eat for gainz I hope I can start going forward again.