All right, I have a big meeting coming up in about a half an hour, I’m in an awful mood, so I’m writing a blog post.
I’m still feeling overwhelmed by work, obviously. Since it’s the end of the month, we have the next batch of missed deadlines on this stupid project looming. It’s like trying to run a marathon while dragging an ever-increasing pile of bricks behind me. I still haven’t really decided if this is my fault or I’m just the person given the task of organizing the deck chairs while the ship sinks. My Big Big Big boss is visiting tomorrow and wants to talk with me; I don’t know if I should expose the black depths of my exhaustion and despair, or pretend that things are fine and that I’ll keep soldiering on. I’ve printed out the "this is fine" comic and hung it up in my cubicle, like a meme-ish cry for help.
I keep hoping things will get better, but they’re probably only going to get worse. Short term goal: get through this meeting. Crying can come after.
Anyway, since this is a workout blog, I would like to report that I’m still fitting in daily exercise. It’s probably not helping with the exhaustion really, but consarn it it’s like the last bastion of putting my own well-being ahead of all this other crap. Supposedly exercise helps with stress too? That’s what they tell me…
Running While Fat 
I’m sorry your job is so stressful. I think it’s extremely unlikely it’s your “fault” that the project is going this way. You’ve been writing about it for quite a while, and it’s been obvious from the beginning that you’re doing everything you can to keep it on track, while people and circumstances are doing their best to derail it. All I can say is that not every chapter of our life is a happy story, I guess salvage what you can from the experience.
I think I understand now your interest in fighting people with swords. You should keep that up.
Thanks. I’ve been stuck in “hero mode” where I’m convinced things will fall apart without me… but the burnout’s getting bad and I think I’d like to just step back a while and observe everyone flailing.
Fighting is straightforward in comparison :)